Clearly it doesn't mean anything to you

If you could see me now, or if you knew how I felt maybe you'd take a little time and think bout what you did.

It's not to say that I'm not completely not at fault here, I do admit that I was in a way wrong and to have hurt your feelings. I do apologize, I am sorry. But then again what do I get for doing good things and caring for you all these years? Nothing at all. Not even a thank you , not even a reply from the friend I thought you were. Well maybe I was wrong. Maybe I shouldn't have been so blind to succumb to your actions. Makes me feel like I'm such a fool. One that never learned her lesson.

Then again, I really wish that all this never happened. Why? Why me?

4 years of my life i spent thinking that you and I had something together to find out not too long ago that this feelings were untrue, fake, a lie. To make things worse after apologizing to you and feeling bad about it, you just had to ignore it and take it as if it was just a joke.

Nothing in that message did I indicate it as a joke.

Sometimes I feel so disappointed. Like the time when I told you I missed you and you never replied that, well, even though now that I finally realize why, I still wished that you felt the same way too. No matter how I might wish, it's just not gonna happen and I'll just have to live with that!